Is diabetic burnout a thing? Yes, absolutely. Although primarily associated with type 1 diabetics, I believe a lot of people suffering from chronic conditions go through some type of burnout. Although I already wrote a bit about here it I want to share more. Because I am in it right now. And I need to pull out. Because of my health and ultimately my life.
Honestly, negativity caught up with me. Again. That bad, bad thing that sneaks up on you when you least expect it. This time because of health issues. I had to stop exercising and I ended up making excuses, again. I stopped measuring my sugar levels. I didn’t pay too much attention to my diet (although I didn’t neglect it completely) and I stopped taking care of myself big time. I once wrote how I try to limit these bad phases to two weeks, but this time it persisted. And I have no one else to blame but me.
That little thing called…stress
I could try to justify myself by saying I was overwhelmed and completely stressed out and exhausted. I was. But it’s not an excuse to stop taking care of myself. And I did. I knew I was doing all things wrong but I let it wash over me and didn’t fight back. Bad choice I tell you. It made me feel unhappy. And I had to stop and admit it to myself. No matter how tired and stressed I am I need to take care of myself.
That little thing called…choice
Suffering from the diabetes burnout is something that happened every now and then in the last 8 years. I do have smaller burnout phases during the year, but this one was a long one. I didn’t talk to my doctor, I didn’t talk to my friends. I just shut myself away. Now, a couple of months later I am aware I need to make a choice. I can:
- feel miserable, feel sorry for myself, feel bad, use every possible excuse in the book to undermine all the positive things I have done for myself in the past year and just go downhill from here or
- I can decide to once again pick myself up and keep climbing that mountain of mine. I can decide to be the better version of myself. No, strike that. To be the best version of myself. To be happy.
Now, this decision, although it seems like a no-brainer, being someone with lower self-esteem, and someone living with a condition..this one is hard. It is so much easier to close up and shut myself from the rest of the world. It is incredibly easy to let the exhaustion overwhelm me and do nothing. Which ultimately leads to lower energy levels, bad sugar, leading to feeling even more exhausted leading to even worse sugar levels leading to…well you get the picture.
That little thing called…decision
I made the decision. I want to feel better and I want to be a better me, feeling happy and satisfied and most of all proud of myself. And I want to stop with the excuses and get my confidence back. I decided I am taking care of myself.
Making the decision was hard. Sticking to it will be even harder. Especially since the burnout phase is still present. But one step at a time. I feel that little voice of positivity kicking back in. Reading my old posts helps even more. To think that all that positivity I shared disappeared because of a damn burnout. Honestly, I’m ready to kick it! I want that positivity back and share my experience in fighting this phase.
So help me out a little. How do you deal with burnout (either as a diabetic or in general)?